Conditions will never be perfect. You will never feel ready. Start anyways.

I’ve gotten stuck so much lately. The fear of not creating overwhelms me and the desire to create keeps me up at night.

I’m in the process of starting small. And installing habits to write no matter what. I’ve been sulking half the day, because the feeling is that it’s not quite right. I’m not quite ready. I’ve been taking notes, writing quotes, researching, and yet, hesitating to write. Hesitating to own my truth.

Some things in life come easy. Many people can kill it at a sport, a career, making money, but there is always a hidden demon lurking inside of them. Something that despite their ease in one area of life gives them constant struggle in another area.

Michael Phelps won gold medals and set world records in swimming but in a podcast with Tim Ferris I heard him talk about his depression and rage. How he hit himself over the head with his own golf shoe because the anger was unbearable.

Most of us can’t imagine that he would have that side in him. And yet we all have that inside of us. A part of our being they we are so ashamed of. An area in our life that we are so incompetent at that we feel like we must be broken. The only thing the logical mind can conceive is that we must have an irreparable problem that no one would ever be able to understand. We lock it up in a dark dungeon in our hearts and tell ourselves the story that we are too cruel and too dark to deserve love.

The irony is that love and acceptance are what we need more than anything. We crave this love. We crave the melting and pain dissolving psycho spiritual cocktail of love to dissolve us of our painful sense of separation so that we may feel united again with source. With the collective sense of acceptance and the goodness of our own heart that for a time we simply stopped believing in.

More often than not, it is this hidden loop of self shame and fear that keeps us bound from creating. When we our loved we are naturally creators. When we feel unconditional love in our hearts and have a taste of our own goodness, and can see the illusion of our self-doubt and fear, then we gain perspective and are able to act anyways. When we see clearly, the creative impulse flows out of us with a childlike innocence because it is nothing more than an expression of the joy of existence.

The first powerful meditation retreat I attended I faced one of my deepest traumas and when I came out I felt reborn. I was in awe with the sound of the birds and the sunrise was a majestic event.

There was such a bubbling of warmth and fascination coming from the heart that I just wanted to share. Writing came easily then. When the mind was quiet and the heart was warm. When fear was gone and procrastination didn’t exist because the moment was so full.

We are meant to live fearlessly from our being and contribute from the depth of our hearts. It connects us to ourselves and to others and is purifying in and of itself. Creation purifies. It connects dots. It proves to ourselves our own goodness and allows others to recognize theirs.

I’m gonna end now. Because I feel good. Simply. I’ve released something despite the conditions not being right and proven to myself that I can write an article in under 20 minutes on my phone.

We are all light.

I spent the morning identifying with darkness. With my own suffering and my failures in life. Creating this has been deeply healing and I know that your creation will heal you.

Put down what your doing.

Stop your hesitating.

Create that thing that has been waiting to come alive.

Your heart will thank you.

Your soul will thankyou.

Your life will thank you.